well alot of shit has been happenin in my fucked up lil world...cant say why shit is happenin its way too personal but eventually i will be okay...im deciding on if i should leave here it might be better or it might not..i will see in a few weeks..i will be single again by friday hahah wonderful huh?..kinda funny tho.. but anyways i want yall to read dis and tell me wut you think..its a work in progress .... thank you!

-Look away-

there you were // and here i was // you looked the same // yet somewhat different // in another way // its hard to explain // but here i am // doing it again//

i fall to my knees// and cry all day// because you are the one // who made me this way // i gotta keep strong // its the only thing // so i try to close my eyes // and look away//

you noticed me // once more // we gave it a chance // a little more // i promised myself // stupid things // like never will i // do it again //

i fall to my knees // and cry all day // because you are the one // who made me this way // i gotta keep strong // its the only thing // so i try to close my eyes // and look away //

you are the one // i think of all day // you are the one // i dreamt of all night // till the morning day // now you are the one // leaving me this way // so here am i // doing it again //

i fall to my knees // and cry all day // because you are the one // who made me this way // i gotta keep strong // its the only thing // so i try to close my eyes // and look away

 REMINDER ITS NOT FINISHED IT!! STILL MORE FIXING!!

..inside my crazy lil head..

theres a time in life //  when i dun kno wut to do // theres a feelin inside // and i just cant tell you // as these days pass by // i feel so hurt inside // cuz i kno i cant keep you // the way you touch my face // brings joy to my heart // the way you call my name // makes me smile deep inside // oh how i wish // i wish i can tell you now // but i cant // i dun wanna bring you down // and i wont // everythin is just soo complicated //  why did it have to happen now? // oh why? // i think about you all da time // and i even dream about you everynight //  you're da person i wanna see // at least one or twice a day // you make me laugh all da time // your soo silly // in a cute way // maybe i should stop thinkin about wuts gonna happen in january // who would of thought of us happenin again? // not i // but you change soo much // and uh // i like you even better now // maybe we shoulda talked before // or not // or maybe shouldnt talked at all // cuz now // we both gonna be hurtin // in a way we cant imagine // but why not // make the most of it // when we still got time //

I am da most happiest person ever!

whats happenin dis weekend

1. Dinner with work friends at 7 .. at TGI..for Latoya...[friday night]

2. Get ready for da club..Millennium..be dere around....12..ish..going wit alize and latoya [friday night]

3. Sleep til 10..gotta do family things....possibly go shopping ..[ saturday morning ]

4. Go to da bank about my credit card..[ saturday afternoon ]

5. Get ready for da club...La Villa.. going wit alize,latoya.frances, and possibly cristina [ saturday night ]

6. Sleep-in! [ sunday morning ]

7. wake up..wenever..den go shopping!! [sunday]

random things on my mind

- people write da weirdest shit on xanga

-wut would i do without my ipod?

-men..are just stupid...

-shoulda went to rome over da weekend..wut da hell was i thinking?

-new york dis winter?..or..stay wit da family??

-grrr my nails kept breaking..

-i needa stop shoppin soo much

-why did i buy those shoes today?!?!...but dere sooo cute..

-i need black shoes for da club...im tired of cleanin my white shoes all da time

-i needa new job..im stressin too much

-needa take more classes..kinda behind now...

-i need winter clothes....grrrr..noo needa stop shopping....but its cold now...

-i needa walk-in closet..cant seem to find wut i need..

-needa apply for my credit card..i kept forgettin..ima do dat now